Leaving, on a jet plane…

Ever feel like something big needs to happen soon?  You find yourself pacing or tapping on everything you can get your fingers on?  Or pacing your house and daydreaming of what your life could be like?  Well, maybe your physical reaction to that feeling is different, but I an antsy.  I have every reason to be that way.  I just graduated college, yet to began a career.  I’m waiting to hear back from a very possible job, at a bank, in a cubicle, every day, same time, on the phone. Lol.  Just thinking of that makes me anxious.  I might even like it.  I did study math in college.  I’m no stranger to strange interests.  But I’m also in the middle of applying for a scholarship that would pay for grad school in another country.  Part of me wants it badly.  The other part says I would be miserable, because it’s a demanding scholarship.  Either way, I want to move.  Leaving the country would be nice.  Ireland, England, or New Zealand.  Those are my choices for going to grad school.  I don’t want to stay where I am.  I don’t want to work in a cubicle forever.  I don’t want to take out a loan for grad school that I’d be paying for when I’m 80.  But a bank job now would give me many skills, especially professional, that I need.  I would also get money and be able to  contribute to a 401k.

What do I want to do with my life?  I have a feeling that I’m gonna be antsy for a while.  I just want to be content with my career/income, lol.  Where can I find that at?  :]

~ by differential on July 5, 2007.